Looking Back

I’ve always existed at the nexus of the American dream falling apart. I was eight when my parents were going through a separation which slowly led to a divorce ten years later. The marriage hadn’t been healthy since I could remember but we were all holding on to some semblance of what we thought was the thing we had to do; the way it had to look.

My sisters and I were very much entrenched in that dream and the privilege of being set up for success in the future. My parents handed me quite a bit, but there was always something about it that felt like complete bullshit. The structure was crumbling and I was just trying to make it out alive. It took me a long time to make sense of it all. I still wrangle with it.

The Day I Die

This is not the solemn low drone of letdown, with an honest knowing that life is as it should be. Rather this grief is the long traverse of deep sorrow into a valley, with stumbles over rocks and potential drops that leave you marred for life. It is a graceless fall, crashing along the way, to the bottom of it all.

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Ghosted

How can death drive two distinct states of being? That which is a mystery can be quite unnerving and curious all at once. Whatever comes for us, either good or bad, is a connection not to be ignored.

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